Episodes

Thursday Aug 01, 2024
Sweet Summertime: 2015 is the Year of Inconsistency
Thursday Aug 01, 2024
Thursday Aug 01, 2024
In this episode of Burning Butterflies, we journey back to the summer of 2015, an action-packed time filled with both excitement and growing concerns.
We kick off with Vacation Bible School (VBS), which sparks an innovative and fun initiative by Brandi and Melissa in children's ministry, setting the stage for an exciting year ahead.
However, amidst the flurry of activities, something significant is missing—the big summer park event. The absence of this beloved tradition raises eyebrows and leads to questions about the funds that were supposedly allocated for it. As the summer unfolds, we delve into the unsettling discrepancies: Tom's new house, the luxurious additions of a finished basement, pool, and hot tub, and the church's new electronic sign.
And where the heck was Amanda all summer?
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Thursday Jul 25, 2024
Ruins to Redemption: Real Healing or Gaslighting?
Thursday Jul 25, 2024
Thursday Jul 25, 2024
In this episode of "Burning Butterflies," Melissa, Brandi, and Amanda dive deep into their experiences at the Ruins to Redemption Women's Retreat, the first retreat held after a year filled with loss and heartache.
Amanda, who was invited to co-lead by Charlotte, shares how her efforts to make the retreat more appealing to a younger crowd blew up in her face. Melissa praises the retreat's setup, believing it to be an exemplary model for future events, while Brandi hated all of it and expressed her dislike to Charlotte.
Did the retreat truly help the participants heal, or were the ladies merely gaslighting themselves and others by insisting that simply acknowledging the pain and encouraging women to "give it to God" was sufficient for overcoming such profound devastation?
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Thursday Jul 18, 2024
Death Becomes Us: When The Call To Be Near The Brokenhearted Goes Unanswered
Thursday Jul 18, 2024
Thursday Jul 18, 2024
In this heart-wrenching episode, Melissa, Brandi, and Amanda discuss the tragic events at the Come As You Are Church in 2014-2015, where five major, sudden deaths shook the congregation to its core.
The ladies open up about their personal experiences and the painful responsibilities they were asked to shoulder during this dark time. They discuss the ways they tried to manage the overwhelming grief and the deeply hurtful requests made of them, which ultimately led to their own failure in providing the support and comfort needed to the brokenhearted.
**We acknowledge that this could be a difficult and potentially triggering episode for some to listen to. Please skip this episode if you find today's topics to be too hard.
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Thursday Jul 11, 2024
Discipleship Double Standard: Women's Ministry vs Beer Ministry
Thursday Jul 11, 2024
Thursday Jul 11, 2024
Today the ladies dive into the unspoken yet pervasive double standards within Come As You Are.
Women are often expected to shoulder a litany of duties: keeping the house spotless, cooking meals, making sure to have a daily quiet time, attending Bible studies, ensuring the homework for those studies is completed, serving the church tirelessly, and participating in women's breakfasts. To top it all off, their conversations with other women are monitored by figures like Charlotte, who ensure they are 'good disciples' and are making more disciples.
Contrast this with the expectations placed on men: show up at church, serve when possible, work hard, and make money (because tithing is crucial). Anything a man does for the church is seen as remarkable, and activities like drinking beer are hailed as discipleship if they mention church, God, or Jesus.
Join us as we explore these glaring disparities. It's a conversation that might challenge your perspectives and ignite a flame for change.
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Thursday Jul 04, 2024
Celebrate Good Times: Melissa Accidentally Throws Tom a Party
Thursday Jul 04, 2024
Thursday Jul 04, 2024
In this episode of Burning Butterflies, we're diving into the chaotic yet revealing story of Melissa's attempt to throw a party.
Initially intended to celebrate Froggy's 40th birthday with a "Game of Life" theme, the event takes unexpected turns. Brandi ditches the party, Amanda gets yelled at, and Charlotte and Froggy derail the plans, turning the celebration into a 60th birthday bash for Pastor Tom.
We'll unpack the strange dynamics of celebrating milestones like birthdays at Come As You Are and explore how this particular party further strained the relationship between Melissa and Amanda.
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Thursday Jun 27, 2024
Called to Lead: A Deep Dive Into The Pastors of Come As You Are
Thursday Jun 27, 2024
Thursday Jun 27, 2024
Welcome to Chapter Three!
In this episode of Burning Butterflies, hosts Amanda, Melissa, and Brandi delve into the tumultuous history of pastoral leadership at the Come As You Are Church. Founded by Tom in 1998, the church has seen a steady stream of pastors come and go, each chosen solely based on Tom's authority, with little formal training and no vetting process.
Join the ladies as they uncover the stories behind these ever-changing leaders, explore the impact of this instability on the congregation, and discuss the arrival of Pastor Young Gun in 2015, who brought a new dynamic to the church.
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Sunday Jun 23, 2024
Chapter 3: Ruins to Redemption
Sunday Jun 23, 2024
Sunday Jun 23, 2024
Welcome to Chapter Three!
"Ruins to Redemption"
This chapter covers the years 2015-2016, which are some of the darkest times in the lives of Melissa, Amanda and Brandi.
In this mini episode, the ladies wrap up some loose ends from Chapter 2 and give you a sneak peek into Chapter 3.

Thursday Jun 20, 2024
Christmas Chaos: Traditions, Expectations & Baby Jesus
Thursday Jun 20, 2024
Thursday Jun 20, 2024
In this final episode of Chapter 2, the ladies take a reflective journey through their experiences with Christmas Eve services at "Come As You Are."
Melissa shares the immense pressure she felt to constantly outdo herself, striving for perfection under Pastor Tom's watchful eye. Meanwhile, Brandi opens up about the challenges of making sure the children are seen but never heard in these "family" services. In a rare act of boundary setting, Amanda shares that she never attended a single Christmas Eve service—an action that shocks her friends and challenges the church community's norms.
Join Melissa, Amanda, and Brandi as they unpack the complexities of holiday traditions, faith, and expectations.
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Thursday Jun 13, 2024
Forced & Fractured Friendships: Tales From the Fall Campaign
Thursday Jun 13, 2024
Thursday Jun 13, 2024
Join Melissa, Amanda, and Brandi as they dive deep into the complexities of the 401 class at "Come As You Are." The fall campaign had everyone buzzing with anticipation, but what ensued was a tangled web of manipulation, misplaced priorities, and unexpected challenges.
Brandi opens up about her experience, recounting how she found herself in a group where camaraderie revolved more around drinking than delving into the course material. Meanwhile, Amanda shares her struggle with being pushed out of the group with her friends and being forced into taking on a group in her home. And Melissa's story takes a poignant turn as she describes her reluctant role in supporting Froggy, all while wearing a forced smile.
Join the trio as they unpack the intricacies of how churches use small groups and large church campaigns to breed control.
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Thursday Jun 06, 2024
Marriage Nightmare: Melissa Breaks the Silence
Thursday Jun 06, 2024
Thursday Jun 06, 2024
In this gripping episode of Burning Butterflies, Melissa shares her story of domestic abuse, revealing the hidden layers of pain and manipulation she endured within her marriage.
But the story doesn't end there. Melissa shares how the toxic environment of "Come As You Are" exacerbated the abuse. Despite the signs of distress, she was convinced that God would perform a miracle, mending the fractures in her relationship.
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Faith can feel like hearts and butterflies...
Until someone lights a match and burns it all to the ground!
Far too often as Christian women we are put into a pretty little box. We are to be sweet, meek and, above all else, submissive! But what happens when the system that you have tried so hard to conform to is toxic? What if it is less about spiritual transformation than it is about spiritual abuse? What happens when everything you have worked so hard to become goes up in flames? This is our story of escaping a toxic church, questioning everything, healing from abuse and rebuilding our faith. We know by telling our story, we are lighting a match. We aren't here to tear down one pastor or one church - we're here to burn the whole system to the ground!